{"id":13707,"date":"2026-03-08T11:00:00","date_gmt":"2026-03-08T12:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/curiousdrive.com\/?p=13707"},"modified":"2026-03-11T21:33:42","modified_gmt":"2026-03-11T21:33:42","slug":"my-doctors-cant-do-anything-about-my-cancer-im-stuck-in-limbo","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/curiousdrive.com\/index.php\/2026\/03\/08\/my-doctors-cant-do-anything-about-my-cancer-im-stuck-in-limbo\/","title":{"rendered":"My doctors can\u2019t do anything about my cancer \u2013 I\u2019m stuck in limbo"},"content":{"rendered":"
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\n\t\t\"Kerie\t<\/div>
I am living with several tumours in my liver and spine (Picture: Kerie Ivory)<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

\u2018I think we\u2019ll carry on with what we’re doing,\u2019 said my consultant, for what felt like the hundredth time<\/strong>, in January.<\/p>\n

And yet again, I felt conflicted \u2013 because I have <\/strong>cancer<\/a>, <\/strong>and what we are \u2018doing\u2019 is nothing.<\/p>\n

I am living with several tumours in my liver and spine \u2013 but because these tumours are very small (\u2018sub-centimetre\u2019) and my cancer is grade 1, which means it\u2019s slow-growing, there is no treatment currently recommended for me.<\/p>\n

So, at the moment, I have to live with <\/strong>these cancerous tumours.<\/a><\/p>\n

I see my consultant every four months; and I always have mixed feelings when I\u2019m told I won\u2019t be receiving treatment.<\/p>\n

On one hand, it\u2019s the best news; nobody wants to hear that their tumours are growing. <\/p>\n

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\n\t\t\"Kerie\t<\/div>
I can\u2019t live a normal life (Picture: Kerie Ivory)<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

On the other hand, the cancer makes me so fatigued I can\u2019t live a normal life \u2013 and it\u2019s really hard knowing we\u2019re allowing it to creep steadily forward while my quality of life slowly worsens.<\/p>\n

I am stuck in limbo.<\/a><\/p>\n

I was diagnosed with a small bowel neuroendocrine tumour in 2012, age 37. The neuroendocrine system is made up of nerve and gland cells spread throughout the body; neuroendocrine cancer can grow in any of them.<\/a><\/p>\n

It took 15 months to get diagnosed.<\/p>\n

My first symptom, when I was 36, was a persistent cough which was misdiagnosed by my then-GP as rhinitis, post-nasal drip, asthma and reflux.<\/p>\n

I then became very fatigued when I returned to work full-time after my youngest started school.<\/a><\/p>\n

A blood test showed I was anaemic \u2013 but I was told by my then-GP that it was normal; I was just a \u2018tired and overworked mother\u2019.<\/p>\n

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\n\t\t\"Kerie\t<\/div>
My symptoms kept getting worse (Picture: Kerie Ivory)<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

In the six months leading up to my diagnosis, I was getting severe bloating. <\/p>\n

I was diagnosed with IBS by that same GP and given mebeverine, a medication that relaxes muscles in the gut \u2013 but my symptoms kept getting worse.<\/p>\n

When I asked why the mebeverine wasn\u2019t working, my GP specifically told me: \u2018You don\u2019t have cancer\u2019. I think she assumed that was what I was getting at. She also told me I didn\u2019t have any symptoms that were \u2018red flags\u2019.<\/p>\n

As I left the surgery that day, I felt she was fed up with me \u2013 but I couldn\u2019t give up. I knew something was very wrong.<\/p>\n

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Comment now<\/title><span class=\"metro-comment-cta__text\">How would you cope with living in medical uncertainty like this? Share your thoughts<\/span><\/span><a class=\"metro-comment-cta__button\" href=\"#metro-comments-container\">Comment Now<\/a><\/div>\n<\/section>\n<p>Physically, I was exhausted. In hindsight, I don\u2019t know how I managed to carry on.<\/p>\n<p>It was only when my GP went on maternity leave and I was seen by a locum doctor in November 2011 that everything changed.<\/p>\n<p>This doctor looked back over my record, recognised straight away that something was wrong, and referred me to a gastroenterologist.<\/p>\n<p>The gastroenterologist thought my symptoms were probably caused by constipation, but \u2013 I think because I was so desperate \u2013 <a href=\"https:\/\/metro.co.uk\/2026\/02\/01\/a-wave-sleepiness-a-takeaway-restaurant-led-cancer-diagnosis-26570676\/\">he suggested the ultrasound to reassure me.<\/a><\/p>\n<p>But the ultrasound found an enlarged lymph node. This discovery led to an MRI.<\/p>\n<p>When the <a data-track=\"inline-tag-auto-link_article\" href=\"https:\/\/metro.co.uk\/tag\/smartphones\/\">phone<\/a> rang a few days later, I knew it was my MRI results; and I knew it was serious. They initially just said I needed to come in for a colonoscopy, but when I pressed them, they confirmed a mass had been seen.<\/p>\n<p>In fact, the colonoscopy showed my tumour had caused an almost total bowel obstruction.<\/p>\n<p>At my follow-up appointment, the doctor’s first words were, \u2018I\u2019m afraid it is cancer\u2019. It was stage 3, <a href=\"https:\/\/metro.co.uk\/2025\/12\/27\/incurable-cancer-death-one-thing-dont-fear-25706807\/\">meaning it had spread to the local tissues and lymph nodes.<\/a><\/p>\n<figure class=\"img-container shareable-item wp-caption\">\n<div class=\"img-wrap\">\n\t\t<img width=\"646\" height=\"493\" src=\"http:\/\/curiousdrive.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/SEI_287834057-781c-e1772717256539.jpg\" class=\"article-image wp-image-27228103\" alt=\"Kerie Ivory - Can't get treatment for my cancer\" loading=\"lazy\" \/>\t<\/div><figcaption>I had further major surgery to remove the cancer in my liver, but it recurred \u2013 again in my liver \u2013 in 2021 (Picture: Kerie Ivory)<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<p>I was really shocked. In fact, I was so lightheaded, I asked to lie down.<\/p>\n<p>I had major abdominal surgery to remove the tumour, as well as sections of my small and large intestines, surrounding tissue, lymph nodes and appendix.<\/p>\n<p>It was a long recovery period, but I did get better \u2013 and life more or less returned to normal. I had some digestive issues but they were manageable with medication.<\/p>\n<p>I was scanned every six months for the first five years, and then yearly. But at my first yearly scan in 2019, cancer was discovered to have spread to my liver;<strong> <\/strong>and I was later diagnosed with incurable stage 4 cancer in 2019.<\/p>\n<p>I had further major surgery to remove the cancer in my liver, but it recurred \u2013 again in my liver \u2013 in 2021. Then, one area of my spine lit up on my yearly full body PET scan in January 2024 and an MRI in March 2024 confirmed two separate lesions in my spine. <\/p>\n<p>My PET scan in November 2025 lit up several areas in my spine – two of which are now confirmed metastases, the others are smaller lesions which are not yet confirmed metastases.<\/p>\n<div class=\"factbox\" data-ico=\"factbox_article\" data-track-module=\"factbox_article\">\n<h2 class=\"factbox-title\">\n\t\t\t\t Neuroendocrine Cancer UK\t\t\t<\/h2>\n<div class=\"factbox-content\">\n<p><em>Kerie Ivory receives support from Neuroendocrine Cancer UK (<\/em><a href=\"https:\/\/eur02.safelinks.protection.outlook.com\/?url=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.neuroendocrinecancer.org.uk%2F&data=05%7C02%7CM.Navarrogriffiths%40metro.co.uk%7C13cf34ecf6624eb5f12708de7ab8ee12%7C0f3a4c644dc54a768d4152d85ca158a5%7C0%7C0%7C639083131886077760%7CUnknown%7CTWFpbGZsb3d8eyJFbXB0eU1hcGkiOnRydWUsIlYiOiIwLjAuMDAwMCIsIlAiOiJXaW4zMiIsIkFOIjoiTWFpbCIsIldUIjoyfQ%3D%3D%7C0%7C%7C%7C&sdata=pIo%2Fr6WRCItSHXVfWEakY6Jr282YnxdBkfPlV2mpIaw%3D&reserved=0\"><em>NCUK<\/em><\/a><em>) as part of her ongoing care.<\/em><\/p>\n<\/p><\/div>\n<\/p><\/div>\n<p>My consultant has always said that the best treatment is to simply remove the cancer. But I wasn’t able to have further liver surgery as the tumour was in an awkward place, so I was referred for radiotherapy instead.<\/p>\n<p>Sadly, the radiotherapy was only partially successful, shaving just a tiny amount off the tumour.<\/p>\n<p>Several other treatment options were explored but ruled out. I was turned down for alcohol ablation, for example, where they inject pure alcohol into the tumour to destroy the cancer cells, because the tumour was too small to see clearly enough for the ultrasound scan to guide the needle into the tumour.<\/p>\n<p>Psychologically, it’s really hard knowing that <a href=\"https:\/\/metro.co.uk\/2025\/12\/21\/told-wouldnt-see-christmas-2022-im-still-25348999\/\">we aren\u2019t doing anything to stop the cancer growing.<\/a><\/p>\n<figure class=\"img-container shareable-item wp-caption\">\n<div class=\"img-wrap\">\n\t\t<img width=\"646\" height=\"447\" src=\"http:\/\/curiousdrive.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/03\/SEI_287833938-0bc3-e1772717290908.jpg\" class=\"article-image wp-image-27228101\" alt=\"Kerie Ivory - Can't get treatment for my cancer\" loading=\"lazy\" \/>\t<\/div><figcaption>This experience has given me an even greater appreciation of all I have Picture: Kerie Ivory)<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n<p>One of the worst things is fatigue. I miss the normal everyday things I took for granted when I was well, like going for a run or cooking for my family. I\u2019ve also had to give up work.<\/p>\n<p>I always dealt with <a href=\"https:\/\/metro.co.uk\/tag\/anxiety\/\" data-track=\"inline-tag-auto-link_article\">anxiety<\/a> by keeping busy \u2013 something I cannot do now with my fatigue \u2013 so I also struggle with my <a href=\"https:\/\/metro.co.uk\/tag\/mental-health\/\" data-track=\"inline-tag-auto-link_article\">mental health<\/a>. Counselling, medication and connecting with other people with incurable cancer helps enormously, but it\u2019s hard.<\/p>\n<p>I’ve always been a positive person, though. This experience has given me an even greater appreciation of all I have, and I am stronger and more resilient than ever.<\/p>\n<p>I know, one day, there will be another appointment when I\u2019m told the cancer has progressed and further treatment is recommended.<\/p>\n<p>I just don\u2019t know when that will be.<\/p>\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center\"><strong>Do you have a story you\u2019d like to share? 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